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My thoughts at the moment:
1. This guacamole sauce is hellaa spicy i hope my tummy doesn’t blow up later in the day. (7:23am)
2. I need to read 30 pages to pass my 6th period global test.
3. I’m feeling like P.Diddy.
4. I need to change my forever21 skirt later today.
5. I don’t want to go alone.
6. Do I have lonersitis?…whatever that is.
7. I feel like getting back into bed.
8. Its 7:26am should I get off the pc.
9. Why am I eating spicy guacamole sauce and tortilla chips this damn early?
10. My mouth is spicy.
(via stonerparty)
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Ciara - Never Ever
going maadddd hard lmao but it always picks me up when im down :/
Dear ….,
I don’t understand how being excited to hang you w/ your girl bestfriend can stress you out? Like seriously what planet is your mind on? It honestly isn’t that serious. Also don’t try to tell me im not your girls rebound when i always hold your shit down and you try to flirt for a day (intense flirting) to later reject my flirting. Stop leading me on it doesn’t help our friendship. Matter fact why do you even come back to me EVERY time we stop talking? But when we start talking again its the same routine w/ the flirting etc… Your not worth it anymore and ME stressing YOU out isn’t either.
National Weed Day
I was supposed to save the 60$ i had for some sandals for the summer…but instead i spent 50$ on weed. I can’t wait for tomorrow :)
Colorgenics
Today I decided to try the colorgenics test as I normally do once in a while. I’ve been feeling uberly stressed out and working really hard lately as I do when I truly want to exceed in something. Studying for all my midterms and how Im going to get into college although has really put me on the edge even though I know I have my midterms in the bag, and as for college I know deep down ill get into the one I want. I’ve also been trying to maintain my distance from my family mainly because I know they will only make things worse for me. Basically this is what my colorgenics test said:
You appreciate the better things of life and you don’t particularly want to strive in order to achieve them. What a pity you were not born into the Gentry with servants, etc. Unfortunately - life is not like that. You have the ability to be whatever it is that you would like to be but you must make the effort.
You are in need of rest, some peace and quiet. You feel the need to be close to that someone special, that someone who can give you that special consideration and unquestioning affection that you seek. If you don’t find that ‘special someone’ and resolve your problems very soon, you are liable to become extremely introverted and cut yourself off from society.
You are trying to break away from the mundane existence that you have been experiencing of late. You have many high hopes and ideals but you are concerned whether circumstances will allow you to realise these ambitions. You want to spread your wings - to broaden your fields of activities - but you are concerned that your dreams are just that - ‘dreams’ which are not realistic. It concerns you that you are not thinking clearly at this time - what you need is to get away from it all, to give you time to think. A short vacation could well restore your confidence.
Your ability to withstand the pressures of everyday life have been overtaxed and this is leading to stress and frustrations. It would seem that for the time being you have lost the resilience and strength of will necessary to contend with existing difficulties. You feel that it is all ‘too much’ and, try as you may, you are getting nowhere. But to give you credit, you continue to stand your ground and pursue your objectives with a fierce intensity. Naturally this situation is subjecting you to intolerable stress and pressure from which you would dearly like to escape, but you can not bring yourself to make the necessary decision. As a result you remain firmly involved in the problem and you can neither view it objectively nor get rid of it - you cannot leave it alone and you feel that you will only be at peace when you have reached your objective.
There is an inherent fear that you may be prevented from achieving the things you want. This activates your subconscious desire for peace of mind and mental security. It is increasingly obvious to you that the environment that you are in is not conducive to your well-being and so you are seeking fresh fields - somewhere free of conflict where you can RELAX and THINK.
Funny isn’t it? How they somehow understand how your feeling by just clicking 8 different colors in a certain order when deep down you barely understand how your feeling yourself. When some stupid test tells you for you!
Magic wood (by winternana)
Children with Williams Syndrome don't form racial stereotypes
Williams Syndrome is a rare genetic disorder that causes mental deficits, but also a hypersocial personality. People with Williams Syndrome don’t just love to interact with other socially — they seemingly have no social fear at all, and they’ll talk to just about anyone, happy, sad, angry, black, white, etc. And now a study shows that apparently they’re the only humans who don’t form racial stereotypes. The rest of us, no matter how anti-racist we are, can’t entirely bypass our evolved responses to people we perceive as belonging to a different group than us. Neurophilosophy: Earlier work by the same group of researchers has shown that hypersociability and lack of social fear in individuals with WS is associated with reduced activity in the amygdala in response to social threats, and to reduced interactions between the amygdala and fusiforn face area (FFA). The amygdala is well known to be involved in fear, and the FFA, as its name suggests, responds selectively to faces. These two structures, together with the prefrontal cortex, are normally thought to encode race information, and it has been shown increased FFA activation is associated with viewing same-race faces. All of this suggests that the apparent lack of racial bias in children with WS occurs because of reduced activity in the amygdala and FFA and impaired interactions between the two, which causes the threat signal normally elicited by someone from a different social group to be diminished. (via)
Midterms
So far everything has been going great. I can’t wait for my Global midterm tomorrow. I love global its my favorite subject in school. I know ill ace it ;)
Out with the old. In with the new.
Im quite happy i have stopped talking to many people. It gives me an opportunity to focus on myself and not others at the same time. It gives me time to learn more about myself and do things for myself rather than others. Im a very giving person and ill go out of my way to make someone else happy. Why is that you treat those who dont matter better than you treat yourself? Or why do you treat your friends with more respect than the way you treat your family? In a way it isn’t fair, but i have learned and understood that you will never in a million years under any circumstance treat a friend the way you treat a sister if you disrespect and nag and argue with a sibling no matter the situation you wont do it to your friend. Its ironic how people work sometimes. But its me time right now and f*ck anyone who thinks otherwise or has a problem with it.
Psychic
I am very intrigued with Psychics. I want to visit one. I think it is enlightening to listen to whatever they have to say even if it is a lie. I’ve always wanted to know what lies ahead before it happens. I am always prepared for the worst, maybe because im pessimistic which is always a good quality in a person. I don’t think someone should always be completely positive because life has its faults.
Some people say its a bad idea because its “black magic” not all psychics are real im pretty sure of that. There are indeed a lot of fakes out there, but that’s also what makes the experience more interesting for the simple fact that you don’t know if what they are saying is true therefore you want to wait for anything to happen.
I am nervous that it may not be what i expect which makes me even more prepared, i want a friend to come with me for the simple fact that i don’t want to see a complete stranger in a small quiet room all by myself and i know ill have someone to come out and talk to about it as soon as its done.
I don’t know…
